I'm Back, You Guys!
So I thought I'd go try another blogging site which I won't name here. Well, it sucked, so I'm back to Blogger with my head between my legs (not my tail, my head - I'm a little dizzy from that last cigarette). I wrote two entries on that page but I doubt I'll migrate them, so here's an update on where I've been for the last what? 20 years since I last posted?
I've been in mental hospitals and sober houses. The mental hospitals were nicer than the sober houses (mostly cause if I'm gonna have a pet I don't want it to be a bed bug or a roach trying to make a nest in my ear). After like a year of running the streets, destroying my relationship, doing really dangerous things and generally being an asshole, I finally checked in to Eastern Long Island Hospital in Greenport. That's at the very tip of Long Island's North Fork (there's only one more town - Orient - and then next stop is France) so I figured the end of the world was a good place for the end of the crazy.
My doctor there spent an hour talking to me. ONE FULL HOUR. Unheard of. Then he said he was going to focus on treating my diagnosis - bipolar 1 with hypomanic upswings, PTSD, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder with Panic Feature - instead of my drug and alcohol problem, which I seem to have pretty much under control with AA/NA (I have 9 plus months today, you guys, after a shitty stupid relapse). Between that doctor and a fabulous social worker, I stayed in the hospital for 3 weeks and then was released to supportive housing. I'm currently living in a community residence, waiting for an apartment in the apartment program to open up. I'm taking it slow, taking my time. And enjoying my meds, which are really working since they're the right meds.
So that's the update. If you read the shitty other blog posts you already know this and you're saying, "Really, Mo? Did they remove the creative part of your brain at the hospital, too?" No, snotty pants, they did not, it's just six in the morning and I have nothing new to say but I wanted to come back to my old blog cause I missed it so relax. There will be new stuff, probably later today because you can only clean so much and I'm off.
Loved reading this. You're not alone. Too often other problems go undiagnosed when drugs/alcohol are involved. It took me a long time sober before even realizing depression was a factor for me. Keep up the good work. It's not easy, but it's worth it.
ReplyDeletepeace,
Chris